WEAVING TOWARD BABY STEPS

I'm working on making a Projects section, but until then I'll have to talk about the things I'm working on right here.

So, it's really tough for me to prioritize and distribute what I view as "responsibilities" throughout my day (as if I don't mention that enough on here). What have been suffering the most are any kinds of creative pursuits, which often get started and then forgotten.

Earlier this past fall I started a weave that I've really wanted to finish but keep getting blocked, either because of poor time management, distractions (baby, blog, shop, life, etc.) or because I literally don't know where to go with it now that I've started.

To illustrate, it took me about two weeks just to get this 3'x3' done

(should have taken hours, but I'm not supposed to be using words like "should")

Some of you know that I've "embraced" (not the right word to use at all) the fact that I'm still working thorough Postpartum Depression -- I can tell you that it definitely does deserve the proper Capital Letters-- and that I'm currently on a quest to make living more manageable, while still trying to boost motivation and get more things done. Oh, and I'm also supposed to start feeling sorry for myself. And avoid phrases like "supposed to".

Anyway, living life in a more manageable and meaningful way means: delegating, prioritizing, simplifying. And taking baby steps.

Part of this means eliminating a few things from my daily life that aren't necessarily things that I want or need to be doing. Another part of this means making specific time for things that I do want to be doing so that I don't dwell on the fact that I didn't, later.

Like weaving.

Whew.

So anyhow, a big [baby] step forward is finally finishing this project, even if it takes forever. When I meditate on it, I envision finishing this larger piece, it looks fabulous, and then I feel the motivation to create many smaller pieces, which gets me in the groove and I can suddenly have something (weaves) that I'm creating in a creative field (textiles and fibers) that I really enjoy and admire, and will no longer be angry at myself for not participating.

I swear, not all posts will be like this.